This week has been a LESSON. I knew going in when I started Monica Elle that it was going to be a lot of work. I can honestly say that in the 32 years of my life I never knew what it felt like to have a panic attack. Now don’t get me get me wrong I have been busy, upset and overwhelmed but i guessed I hadn’t reached my limit yet. Well 2020 has taught me what a panic attack is. Between Covid-19, Breonna Taylor, George Floyd (and unfortunately so many more) and politics; all this has taking a toll on what chemical mechanism in my head that I trained myself to deal. Tipping point.
Since I now know that I am capable of being anxious. (Who would’ve thunk it, lol)? This blog is my way to manage my anxiety. Making a connection with what I’m thinking with the experience is helpful.
Monica Elle has taking over every part of my life. To stay sane, I must compartmentalize everything in to organized slots. Sometimes it starts with the physical organization of supplies and files. But also, I must organize all the mental stuff. That part I am still working on it. I started sectioning off different aspects of this business. Organization helps clear the mind. If you can see what you have; in one central location it helps you stay on task. Now I need to figure out how to organize everything in my head.
P.S Organized: adjective, arranged in a systematic way, especially on a large scale.